Last week, I got the call. The call I had been anticipating. The call I had been holding my breath for. The call I couldn't wait another minute for.
This summer, I will be an assistant director at the day camp I worked at last summer!!!
I am so excited! I can't express what an absolute honor it is to be given this opportunity. After three summers of being a counselor, I'm transcending the position and moving upward. I feel like my career is really starting. I feel like I'm on the road.
So I have a lot of feelings towards this.
Of course, the most obvious is that I'm incredibly excited. I can't wait to see camp from a new angle, get to try something new, and pass on some of the lessons I received from supervisors. I have had so many camp directors and supervisors, and I can't wait to put the good parts of each together to hopefully be the best I can be.
But I'm also TERRIFIED. What if I'm not good at this? This is supposed to be my career, and if I don't succeed or if I hate it, WHERE DOES THAT LEAVE ME? What if the counselors don't listen to me, because I'm young? I think I know how to have the confidence and authority to show that I know what I'm doing, but what if they just don't buy it?
This is also another turning of the page for me, and with that comes a level of sadness. I love being a counselor, and I will miss the one-on-one contact and connection I make with campers. I'll miss having inside jokes with my kids. I'll miss seeing them succeed everyday in a new way. I can't believe it, but I think it's really time for me to be done as a counselor.
So those are my emotions right now. Kind of a mixed bag of nuts.
Here's to 2014!
Samantha
